hey boys and girls,
I just finished setting up the rest of the year with the fabulous Chi Chi LaRue, Doug Jeffries and the rest of the C1R team. It's going to be good.
On a personal note, recently Turk Mason and I decided to end our on and off again 4 year relationship.
It's almost surreal to me. I love him so much sometimes i cant handle it. I just dont know. We are so different. It's hard for both of us.
how can you love someone when you have nothing in common? We started doing films together and actually he was the first model I had ever worked with, and vice a versa.
We knew this was coming, and we've taken breaks before. But actually having this be final is something that's very hard for me to deal with.
Is love alive?
How can 2 people love each other so much and then decide to not be together? It's very VERY dis-heartening.
I just got a phone call from my roomate and she told me that her and her boyfriend just broke up today and he's in the process of moving out of our place.
Thats the thing, they have SO MUCH in common. They fight sometimes, but it never seemed too serious.
and now its over.
Last year, i thought I would marry Turk. We had even talked about a wedding, etc.
and now its over.
Coming to terms is rough ... and giving up feels terrible...
But there's jsut nothing else we can do for each other but to let go.
So we did.
Life is great here, my career seems to be going in a good direction.
Is love alive?
Who can say for sure.
kisses and cuddles, bebes. I'll talk to you all soon.
<3
-V-
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Hi sweet stuff
ReplyDeleteLove is alive. That I can promise.
Of course, it's hard when your relationship has ended, 7 years ago I thought it was the end of the world when I broke up with my partner after 2 years, it drove me to a nervous breakdown in which I attempted suicide.
I bounced back because I just had to. It was that or nothing.
6 months after that I met someone else and now 7 years later we're still together so love is alive.
I wish you and Turk the best. You are both genuinely good people.
ReplyDeleteWho knows what is in the future.
Foster
I have discovered your blog just for accident, searching news about you on the web...
ReplyDeleteIt's so great to see how nice you are, I had this feeling in your movies, that you are a sweet guy...
I don't know how can my opinion be important, but I'm sure you've done the best thing: staying together when there's not so much to share anymore is wrong, and it comes out at a certain point of our lives, as it happened to me as well..
A big hug from Italy, I think you're special.
Tino
my best friend and his man seem to be going through the same thing :( i still have hope that they'll find their way back together. i know no one makes them as happy as when they're together :) i wish u guys the best.
ReplyDeletesorry but you are boring. you look like other porno's men...
ReplyDeleteAmerican-Silly-Boy.
Change your appearance and maybe I gonna like you.
i cannot accept the news that you had ended you relationship,~i love you so much ~please keep updating you blog,then i can trace your everything~
ReplyDeletecheer up! and i hope you could connect with me at your convenience:)
Hi Vance
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that you and turk are not living together . I would like you and turk back together . Turk is in Europe now . I would like you and turk to travel and get your head on straight someplace . You should be alone and talk.
Ever have one of those experience that reminds you that life is very short and that people and relationship are --above all else -- the really important things in life? Then why do we sometimes forgot and get carried away in the unimportant?
big fan
Lester
Hi, Vance!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Tino that your nice character is easily seen in the movies. That's what attracts me to your films - not sex (or not only sex :))) Somebody think it's a joke, but I really watch porno for love. So it's only the movies with you and Turk. There your eyes shine and the way you kiss his cheecks, his legs and etc. - that's called love.
Don't you worry! Love exists and if you feel terrible apart from Turk you'd better step a little onto your pride's throat (is there the metaphor in English?) and make some steps into his direction. There's no such thing as "too different to suit each other"! Me and my boyfriend are copletely different in our characters, opinion, tastes etc... But we are still together in 5 years. Sometimes we fight and seem to really hate each other, but the thought of being apart kills me. And then I or he say "I'm sorry"... You can't change a person, you just have to accept some things in him if you love him.
I wish you all the best, and please keep on smiling and let your kind eyes shine!
From Russia with LOVE!!! :)
Olga.
I am listening to Prince's "The greatest romance ever sold"... Have you ever heard it? Reminds me of your relationship with Turk :) I'd like to add that you have to fight for your happiness, when you feel that THIS IS YOURS... Yours will always remain yours... Remember it!
ReplyDeleteLove you,
Olga.
Happy Birthday. Hope you have a great day.
ReplyDeleteHey Vance,
ReplyDeleteNot sure if you'll ever see this but I hope you do. It's Scott..the boy from Sonoma. We only dated for about 3 weeks while you were going through the break up with Turk. Even though it didn't work out I just want to let you know that I still think about you. It doesn't make sense but it's been a few years and I've seen a lot and have to come to realize the length of time doesn't matter. What I'm trying to tell you is that you were special to me. I would love to hear from you. My email is sjkalter@usfca.edu I've tryed to find you on facebook and myspace and you're virtually non-existant these days as far as the internet goes. Hope you're doing well. If I took anything from the time I spent with you its that love is very much alive and that anything is possible :)
LOVE is alive babe... Its just the problem that we dont want to face the cruel of this world.. So just forget bout it if u feel sad..
ReplyDeleteHe never came back ...
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